Normal

I have a twitter account – and I’ve posted on my blog before how much I enjoy it. HERE is the post!

One of the reasons I have felt so comfortable with twitter is because many of my friends from face book don’t have a twitter account. I’m more open with my comments on twitter. – However, I did uninstall twitter on my phone during the elections. I decided I like people – “my friends” more if I don’t know how they believe or what they believe or who they believe in.

Okay, so sorry – I’m rambling. Back to the purpose of my post. Normal.

Today I tweeted:

Believe it or not, I usually shy away from the dramatics. I dislike posts that are begging for someone to ask “what’s happening?”  or “what’s wrong?” but from my post today you probably can’t tell that I shy away from these dramatics.

Well, I forgot my dear friend Deb S. has her twitter account set to get notifications of my tweets!!! I love that girl!!

So she immediately sent me a text asking about my tweet.

I guess I thought mourning would lessen over time. – and I guess it has some – it’s just I thought I would be more “normal” in my emotions, in my life by now.

I am still depressed, I am still at a loss as to what to do with my life. Good grief, I’m 63 years old – why don’t I have things figured out by now??? It’s just really so frustrating to me.

I’m sure family and friends are tired of hearing me say “I think I will…. “ Then I never do and nothing changes.

My daughter's reaction to my comment -
"I'm going to do one of three things - I'm going to sell everything and  move to New York City, or I'm going to get a tattoo or I'm going to sell everything and buy an RV and live in it." 
Her response? "WHY on earth would you live in an RV???"  
REALLY? This was what she was worried about??

And trust me - these aren't the only ideas I've come up with.

I still have to DRAG myself out of bed most mornings. I still wake up during the night and have a hard time getting back to sleep. I still procrastinate all the things Randy did and now I need to do them.

I am at a loss. Literally. I am longing for normal and I don’t want where I am right now to be normal.

So my dearest Deb!!! – this is the exclamation of my tweet!!
I love ya, Girlie!

A Little Color in My Office

My friend, Ellen, gave me a beautiful picture. I love it. It adds so much color in the office. I look up from my desk and it makes me happy!

Isn’t it gorgeous?

Thank you so much, Ellen!!

Happy New Year!!!

New Year’s Eve at the Cohorn’s was filled with laughter, food, grands and friends. Good times!

      

  

We ate

We talked

We laughed

        

  

         

We played farkle

We laughed some more

We ate some more

We had a wonderful time ringing in 2014.

Happy New Year

and

May God bless you beyond your imagination!

The Lost Hymnal!

I have always enjoyed using a hymnal in my quiet times. I'm not a gifted singer. I can't carry a tune, but I love to read the hymns.  I have always had a favorite Hymnal that I have used and in the move I misplaced it. 

It could be in one of m.a.n.y. boxes... 

I may have accidentally stuck it in a box that went to Community Care... 

Or I may have put it with other items that went to other family members. 

Anyway, my lost hymnal was like the ones we used in the first church we ever worked with, in 1978!  At my "home" church, Oakwood Christian Church in Enid, Oklahoma. So I messaged one of my dear friends from my home church and asked if she remembered the name of the hymnal so I could find one on amazon. She sent one to me!!! 

My dear friend went on an adventure in the church attic to find this hymnal for me!  The only thing that would have made her gift to me better is if I could have enjoyed that adventure with her!!